Not all of us are lucky enough to get second chances. Not everybody gets the possibility to start over multiple times after break ups, losses or any sort of great pain. Not all of us are strong enough to let go, forget and move on. And when we get a chance to free ourselves from our troubled past and actually breath in fresh air once again, we regard this new beginning as something bad. The poison we were inducing into ourselves by not freeing our souls from bad influences and bad karma, mislead us into thinking we don’t deserve anything but pain and suffering. I’m going to be honest with you, without my losses I wouldn’t be the person I am today, and ironically, I am more than thankful to everyone who caused me to live with pain. Those people and all the situations I had to endure without anyone’s help, fulfilled my being. They made me stronger. All of my lovers taught me one thing or another, and I think I wouldn’t do anything differently if I were given a chance to go back in time. I don’t think they would either.

I lost many people in my life, and I was ready to give up a million times; I even have “warrior” tattooed on the soft inside of my inner arm. I give up constantly: I don’t finish reading books, I don’t have major hobbies which take up my daily routines, I don’t get inspired by happiness or beauty in its raw state anymore. I only find comfort in discomfort. I find inspiration in sadness and turn my pain into productivity, hence why I am writing about it right now. One would never imagine that it’s possible to loose the closest people to oneself, the people who told us they would never leave, never turn their back on us and never find anyone better. Ultimately, the exact opposite happens every single time. There is no exception. And in each and every case we get so surprised thinking that this personal trauma only ever happened to me, and no one else.

Moving on from this, let us outweigh the amount of love stories we ever heard, seen or read about. Now tell me, does the majority contain a good or a bad ending? Do romantic movies show even an exceptionally happy ending without a break up, argument or any other form of pain? No, they don’t. Love and life does not function without a hurtful climax or turning point. A sad beginning is usually not followed by a happy plot, and no way is there a happy ending. An unhappy person is not a sad story though. A person is simply the embodiment of a shape or a form ready to be turned into anything, and turn itself into something.

Be everything, be you.